{ Ramblings }

Woe ME!

I've been rattling my brains out for some answers to why certain things had to happen and when I think I found some answers to these questions of mine, some higher beings out there would just give me some other things to blow my top to and make me lose my footing and answers. I've been slinking in and out of the blues lately and I'm still not strong enough for another round of issues but I am again entombed to a lot of them these days. I fear that rationality, logic and saneness might soon leave me and allow me to be the scatterbrain that I was once was.

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Reflection #1

It just hit me again: there is no forever and always. There is just now and the past. The hardest thing is to forget your past. I ask you this: how do you deal with the now if your past keeps on surfacing and tormenting you like it is your now? How do you stop feigning normalcy when all your insides are just a mere throbbing open-wound? How can you trust, invest emotions and some sense of security when one knows that at one point in one's life someone, somebody or something would just leave you with broken promises, broken friendship or the feeling of brokenness?

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I am Angel. . . under a lot of stress lately.