{ Ramblings }

One Month After

Yep! Yesterday I regretfully and "sadly" marked the first month of my being single. What a way to start this entry huh? I've been so sad these past days and I haven't touched my journal at home since. . . a month back. A month has already passed me by but I'm still in the process of getting the right formula to move on and forget.

A month after. . . Mwah19 dropped me the famous line of: "What did you see in Ex-Honey?" I tried to rationalize and reason out to her but she's a better debater than me in this certain touchy issue. I know everyone's right, there are a whole lot more better men out there for me but unfortunately I'm still blinded by my being heartbroken that I could not even feel there presence.

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With all the pretty roses. . .

and all the Haranas and chocolates comes the momentous event/ Hallmark hyped Valentine's day. How did I spend the day in which I thought that the Gods conspired against me? Well, I hanged-out at Cheesyboy's place in order to surprise my Japanese Acrobat Sister. Attended Japanese Acrobat Sister's surprise party. Went to Fort after to attend the MTV awards bash. Went home after that and slept the rest of the V-day off.

I've been cruel to lovey-dovey couples that day. I snarled and sneered and snickered at those foreign and non-foreign couples that I see making out. I tried to be invisible as much as possible. I tried to laugh. I tried everything but. . . I still felt the coldness and the pent-up tears of being alone on V-day. And I'm still carrying that feeling up to this day.

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Shout-out:

Thanks PREM from waking me up from my stupor of sadness and non-blogging.


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I am Angel. . . sadness is seeping through my being.