{ Ramlings }

Of Butterflies. . .

Its been several days since I last saw a butterfly. I guess they went to hide from seeing the hurt and the confusion that I've experienced these past few days. I know a lot of people take for granted seeing a butterfly but to me butterflies are one of the signs that your day will be good and that somehow your day will be smooth sailing.

I am enshrouded by confusion and hurt and, somehow, seeing several butterflies today made me realize that soon everything will be all right.

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Songs. . .

These are songs that's been playing on my mind non-stop. The confusion is still escalating. The doubts and fears are overwhelming. I still don't know what to do. Maybe I am just so STUPID.

Strong Enough- Sheryl Crow

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
It's try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I've shown you that I just don't care
When I'm throwing punches in the air
When I'm broken down and I can't stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave


Almost Over You -Sheena Easton


I saw an old friend of our's today
She asked about you, I didn't quite know what to say
heard you've been making the rounds 'round here
while I've been trying to make tears disappear

Chorus:
Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
so when you come back around
after painting the town
you'll see I'm almost over you...

you're such a sly one with a cold cold heart
maybe leavin' came easy, but it tore me apart
time heals all wounds they say and I should know
coz it seems like forever,
but I'm letting you go

(chorus)

I can forgive you and soon I'll forget all my shattered dreams
although you left me with nothing to show
but all misery

( chorus )

when you come back around, after painting the town,
you'll see I'm almost over you...

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I am Angel. . . need enlightenment!