{Bitching about. . .}

Lyrics:   Queen of Paranoia  SlApShOcK

There are things that are meant to happen. Just when I was getting used to the idea that I'll possibly have another brother or sister, God in His weird and mysterious ways, suddenly gets that baby. My mom was diagnosed as having tubal pregnancy or ectopic pregnancy yesterday. Last night at 7 p.m. my Nanay underwent an operation to remove her right fallopian tube. Our tinee weenee baby's now gone. Our family's trying to see the good things in our current situation. My 7 year old brother Angelo was the only person who uttered these words: "Ba't ganun si Lord? Binigyan tayo ng baby tapos kukunin nya rin?"

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I am currently the stand in mother of three growing boys. I am trying as much as possible to show little or rather no emotion at all with regards to what happened to our family. It pains me so much knowing that my reaction's on the side of bitchiness and selfishness when Nanay told me that she was pregnant. Now, I regret all the things I've said that fateful Friday night.

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I am most of the time a pessimist. I have to force myself to see the positive side of this unpleasant turn of events for our family. I have to be strong. I have to be the long lost Ate this family has been looking for all these time.

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Times like these I am most grateful for my concerned friends and relatives. Thanks to my Table_03 friends, most specially Zhorai and Mike. Z and Mike have been my sounding board these days. It was Mike who I called up after my dad and I had a big, big shouting match and confrontation. Thanks to Mike! Sorry if I woke you up in the middle of the frigging night! I love you guys to pieces!

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Please include our family in your prayers or conversations with the Higher Beings. Our family would deeply appreciate it.

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I am Angel . . . a.k.a Darna!