{Bitching about. . .}

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Jolly Rower Boy Dilemma . . .

Jolly Rower Boy officially have gone cold turkey! Our friendship or relationship or communication (however and whatever you would want to call it) is so strained that I'm left with this confounding conundrum of doubts and questions. The budding relationship that we had suddenly gone KAPUT!!!!

I'm so confused with his indifference towards me. People say that maybe he's still mustering enough courage to pursue me. People say that maybe he's just "nahihiya" because of what he said! GEEZZ!!! I don't see the point for him to be shy or embarrassed by what happened that V-day night. I mean he just told me what he feels. I don't think that we should be ashamed or embarrassed about what and how we feel. Its our own thing so to hell with what other people think?!?

I know I'm being the cold-heartless-bitch that I've always been but I think I really like this Jolly Rower Boy. To hell if he's an engineer (again?!?)! To hell if there are some people who disagrees with me. This is what I feel so "walang pakialamanan"! To hell with what other people think!

I'm starting to miss the usual things that we do Jolly Rower Boy. I don't think I could take this indifference and coldness that you have been giving me. I am sadden by the turn of events of our friendship/relationship. I thought we were going a notch up but it feels like we're downgrading. I feel like I'm losing a friend! : (