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Lyrics:  Your Song  ElToN JoHn

V-day update:

Well, most of my day last Friday was spent moping around. I was missing the feeling of being in love and cared for that particular day. I know I've got a lot of friends showering that but then again, there's this special feeling if you've got somebody special with you. I'm not bitter about the Honey-Baby saga. Its just that I was just missing the feeling I've had with me for two years. These "missing" and "lonely" feelings I've got only lasted until around 10 pm that day. After 10 pm, somebody told me he liked me! I couldn't believe what Jolly Rower Boy told me that night. I mean, I've got this intuitive feeling that he liked me but I wasn't really expect that he'll tell me that he liked me. So somehow, my V-day didn't really suck after all! ^_^

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Post V-day Update:

I think I like Jolly Rower Boy but things suddenly changed. I guess the awkwardness of the situation is finally settling in. I mean before he told me that he liked me he was this sweet guy who constantly texts me, but now, it feels like he suddenly turned cold turkey! Geez! >X (

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I'm not complaining about him not texting me. I'm also not "nagtatampo". Its just that I got used to our constant talking and texting that the sudden change caught me off guard. Jolly Rower Boy tells me that I'm matampuhin. I am not. Its only human nature to be jolted by sudden changes in what is normal. What is normal for me is our constant talk, jokes, and texting. . .What is not is he's sudden indifference and coldness. I'm half regretting why I ever pestered him into telling me who the girl he likes. We both weren't prepared for the truth.

On the other hand. . .

Its nice to know that I'm a likable person. Knowing that somebody really likes me disproves the self-image that my dark chocolate ex-Honey painted of me. . .

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For Jolly Rower Boy. . .

Thanks Jolly Rower Boy for telling me what you feel about me. But please forgive me if sometimes I look for the simple things that we used to do. Our friendship and closeness before is what is normal for me. . .this thing we got now,  is something new and somehow [in a good way] abnormal for me. I am not saying yes to the boyfriend/girlfriend relationship that is somewhat inevitable in our situation. I am still in the process of debating with myself the pros and cons of what I'm going to get into if ever.

I asked you before if you're going to court me or not and you just told me that you're telling me that you like me. Well, I think you'll be heading that way if ever you could muster enough courage. I've had reservations before opening my heart to somebody new but please do know that I'm seriously considering opening it now. I just hope you will have the patience and maturity to please bear with me. I've got a lot of issues that I'm still resolving in myself.