OH BOY! EX-BOY!

The EX-change

Here's what my ex-boy and I recently exchanged to each other:

Thursday, December 01, 2005
Subject: Hi!
From: Ex-boy

You're a special person, not just for me but for everyone who've gotten to know. I'm just sorry that my minds all messed up and confused, don't know which things to prioritize. Hopefully we could both be happy someday together or apart, i wish you the best.

Take Care Always.
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Friday, December 02, 2005 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: Hi!
From: ButterflyBrat

Yeah i wish that too. i guess sometimes things just don't work out the way we planned. i guess for the meantime, masakit man sabihin at mahirap kong gawin, i will be giving up on the hope that we might be together someday. as usual, the odds are against us with us being apart and you, being you.

don't tell me that am a special person to you because frankly, i really don't think i ever was one to you. i feel that i am just one of those many phases that you went through in life and the fun stopped somewhere along the road.

i'm so sorry if i've contributed to you being messed up and confused. i never meant for that to happen. you are one of those few people i truly care about and if i knew that i was doing that (messing and confusing you) to you it's just like killing a part of myself. pasensya na sa lahat ng mga nagawa ko before. my insistence was due to the great love i had for you. maybe you're right. it is time to let go. . . let go of you, of our memories, and my love. you know that if there was one thing na i never quitted or gave up on was you but with all these things happening i guess, this is the very first time i would be giving up on you. i am so sorry for hanging on far too long.

i just pray that the next time around you do decide to have a relationship with anyone, you are really ready and prepared for it. stop playing games with people. may mga emotions ang tao and it may be fun to you stringing them along and all but in the end you are ruining someone's life. tandaan mo na even though a girl pretends that she doesn't notice those li'l stuff you do to and for her, it doesn't mean that she doesn't appreciate it. so if hindi ka naman seryoso sa isang tao, don't string her a long for a ride na wala naman patutunguhan unless you both made it clear na for fun lang ang meron kayo and nothing more. sometimes, akala mo people don't feel for you. malay-malay mo mahal ka na pala ng binobola mo and you, you can't give yourself kasi you're too messed up and you were just doing that out of sheer moronic fun. just try to be careful next time.

maybe this is the time for us to be really alone and apart. we maybe miles and continents apart but the strings and bonds that tied us together kept us from really leading separate lives. i don't know if ever i'll hear from you again, but i pray that i do. you are still a big part of my life. but if i don't hear from you maybe it is for the better. things always have a reason for happening and this nth time of goodbye and severing ties for the two of us have a reason kahit na hindi ko alam kung ano yun. i am not going to pretend na hindi ako naapektuhan ng lahat ng nangyari at nangyayari sa atin. i am really deeply hurt by the sudden turn of events between the two of us. we've weathered through the roughest storms and still we ended up like this. siguro nga totoo yung hula sa'yo tungkol sa atin.

i will miss you. you are one of the few people who made a great impact on my life. i wish you all the best and more, my dearest sweetie. it has been proven that we live in a small world and i know that there is a possibility that we will meet again, i just hope that when that time comes we both know what we want. thank you for everything.

you take care. gumamit ng proteksyon for boom-boom! ~_^

au revoir!

** I've written everything down verbatim not because I want you, dear reader, to get bored of me but for me to remember all these things that I wrote to him. I just wish that somehow, someday I'll find that one person who is really meant for me.

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I am Angel. . . still taking the road often less travelled by many.