Hmm. . . my rose-colored glasses are still cracked and my bubble is still burst, ergo, here I am wondering if there are still people (anyone!) out there who still practices monogamy? It seems like everyone I know have somehow dabbled with the thought of being with someone else even though they have a "happy and stable" relationship. Or maybe, I am just misinterpreting all the things that they've said because I don't want to feel how alone I am and how single I am. But really, I am wondering if monogamy has ever been practiced in this life or in our society? Or maybe people are just plainly repressed hypocrites that's why it seemed to me before that there is such a thing as monogamy. Tsk! Tsk! I hate knowing what I know now.monogamous men are a dying breed. they are even close to xtinction. wish
i'd find one before they're all gone and taken!
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Contemplation #2: Of Nonsense and Pansit Entry
I've been rattling my brains out on what to write in this blog. It's been a long while since I've updated any of my blogs. Yes, I keep two blogs. For nearly thirty minutes, I tried writing in my own native tongue but unfortunately, I really suck at it. I don't know why I have the hardest time writing in Filipino. It saddens me that I am slowly losing touch of the "Filipino" in me. But then again, the ability to write in Filipino is not the only thing that makes up a Filipino. There are a lot of things but I really wish that I am able to write in Filipino more often than not. What to write and what not to write? That is the question that's been bugging my mind right now. Fortunately, I have the time to think about these things. I have three hours to kill, therefore, time to write about nonsense. Just to warn you, my dear reader, this entry is nothing but pure unrelated ramblings. If you're the type who have a very short attention span, this one's for you. But if you are looking for an intellectually stimulating sensible read, I suggest you check back this blog another time. Let me start my rambling with the weather here in T.O. Frig! The cold has settled and seems to me that it would be staying for a long while. I've confided to a Filipino friend (who was born here) that I have a feeling that this year's winter isn't going to be one of those pictured in many Christmas songs. Snow is pretty and all but the temperature dipping in sub-zero levels is what I detest. Geez! It's not even frigging winter but it feels like winter. The past few days we've experienced those single digit temperature and apparently the weather would dip even lower in the next coming days. FCUK! ARGH! So, for those people who are wishing to move here in Canada, I suggest in order for you to at least get some sense of the how cold it can get here, buy 3 Industrial Aircons for one tiny room turn it on full blast and then stay in that room. Now, you get a picture of how the temperature can drop here. Winter's pretty with the first snow but after awhile, it gets ugly. Slush (snow that has been on the ground for days. . . it's a combo of wet snow, mud and soft "ice") and the freezing temperatures makes you want to move in the tropics. Fall is pretty too. There're a lot of colors and you can really see the changes in the season but the latter part of fall just boggles you. I think my favorite season is Spring. The pretty colors are coming back, flowers are starting to bloom, the temperature isn't that cold, walking around town is starting to get pleasurable during this time. Summer is just hot and humid but then again, you don't have to wear a lot of clothes during this season so I guess that's a big plus for that season. Moving on to another topic, food. I saw a picture of a platter of sisig at super D's blog. Sisig is one of my many all-time favorite Flip food. There was one time me and my ex-boy where at Kaibigan's (they sell cheap but awesome sisigs there) and he tried to ruin sisig for me. He tried telling me what sisig is made up of. I know it's prolly something icky but it tasted great so I'd rather continue enjoying it than be disgusted by what it is made of. Oh yeah, I still remember loads of stuff with my ex-boy in it but I'm not in the mood right now to talk about those things. Going back to the sisig episode, I was raging mad at Super D that particular day because his picture triggered major cravings in me that I actually went around York U looking for a restaurant/fastfood chain that would offer anything that is remotely similar to sisig. Just my stupid luck, I couldn't find anything that would fill my craving. So until now, I have yet to fill my craving. I've called several Filipino Restaurants but unfortunately they don't make sisig on a daily basis and it's made to order. I just frigging needed one serving to quench my craving! I guess, I just have to wait for the next holiday wherein all my family here would be gathered in one place. I'll ask one of my Tito's to make sisig for their pulutan so I could also fill my hunger. I WANT SISIG!!!!!
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Contemplation # 3: Hints
I hate those people who don't say what they need and want to say but instead give out hints. Geez! I'm not a fucking mind reader you know. . .
Just tell me straight whatever shit that you want to say to me, rather than sending out feelers. I can sometimes be extra sensitive to these feelers or just be down-right ignorant to them. I may seem like a weakling to you but just fucking say what you want to say instead of sending out feelers and hints. Just tell me what you want and I'll take actions accordingly. Just don't send me hints and feelers.
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I am Angel. . . just tell me what you want, what you really, really want!
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