To a few friends

Your grief

I feel your pain. . . your grief. My condolences are sent through a number of sms. My concern for your well-being suddenly surged through my being. Frankly, I do not know what to say when you told me you were lonely. I thought it was your typical reply to my almost rhetoric question of how are you. Then you told me that our friend died. He accidentally plunged himself 20 metres down to the ground. I was speechless. I was stunned.

Your grief suddenly enveloped me. I guess I knew you really too well that I felt you would start to break down after I asked how you are doing again. I knew you were fighting your tears because you are that type of person who tries to suppress and repress all your emotions. I knew that you did not allow just anybody to be with you in the land of tears.

I do not know if I should feel honored that you took me to that land. I do now know if I should really feel this terrible and big grief which is hanging around me like a big dark cloud. What should I say to a person who I haven't heard from for quite sometime, trying his best to sound ok even though I hear the quiver in his voice, telling me that our friend died? I could only surmise that I was one of the first people who he told about the incident.

I wanted to hold you like I once did. I wanted to comfort you. . .dry your tears and say it's not your fault. I wanted to keep you close to me, cradle you like the child that came and went like a thief in the night. I wanted to shield you from the pain. . .from the grief, but, I can not. I am not in that position anymore. All I can do is sms you that I would always be here for you.

I know that you are still not over from waking up from a beautiful dream. I know that you are still grieving the death of the power of two. I know that you are still not strong enough for this kind of blow. But God has this "funny" way of showing how much He cares and thinks about us. This is His way of showing it to you.

I know that you will soon find in yourself the strength I tried feeding on for quite sometime. I know that you will soon surpass all these grieving. Dwell in the brokenness and search for yourself and you will soon find the peace of heart.

I can only pray and hope for you. I can only wish that good things would soon come your way. I can only pray that you find the strength I once saw and felt in you. I can only hope that sooner or later the loneliness, the pain, and the grieving would be replaced by happiness and peace.

I am so sorry our friend died. Yes, he could've done so many other great things in his life but his time was up. God has some other plans for Him. I could only think that God thought he would be a better help to people if he was with God and His Angels.

I worry about you so much. I guess, I would feel the same thing to any friend who needs comforting. I really am so sorry.

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With Angel Kisses


Dear _________,

I hope you're doing much better now.

I know how heavy and fluffy angel wings could be. Sometimes they are too fluffy and sometimes they tickle you at the wrong places.

How does it feel to be up close and personal to that Higher Being? Do He really like those filling Manna that He showered to His people once? Does He crack jokes or is He such a serious Being?

I know that this letter seems a little weird to you. I guess, I am just missing you right now. A lot of people are missing you right now. A lot of people suddenly feels this big hole in their hearts because you left the party called Life too soon.

I know you would look over us. Making funny faces when we are sad and lonely. Reminding us that we should laugh. Maybe we'll hear your laughter-- deep and rich-- in the soft gentle breeze. Maybe things are this way for the better.

I know you are now partying up there with the Angels. Give Him a big kiss for me ok? We will miss you and would always cherish the memories we shared.

Take care now. Don't party too hard ok? I know we'll see each other again.

With Angel Kisses,

Angel

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I am Angel. . . here to comfort people.