{ Ramblings }

HONEY'S HERE. . .

and my one month of thinking is now gone with the wind! I saw Honey last Thursday night. Tsk! Tsk!

I couldn't believe it. He's here na. I've been going through certain scenes on my mind and the hypothetical what-ifs that a lot of people have posted on me. Now, he's really here and well, the hypothetical what-ifs and those certain scenes that I've mentioned seem like a far-away stressors in my reality. I still couldn't believe that Honey is finally here.

To tell you frankly, I am really not that super over the top happy that Honey's here. The fear of getting hurt and not making the right decision is bothering me to the point that the old paranoid monarch butterfly is slowly stretching its wings and is covering my heart. I've been praying a whole lot again. I am trying to make sense in the jumble and mixed up bottled emotions I have. I want him but then again a part of me fears him. As my Japanese Acrobat Sister told me last Friday: "The person you might hate the most is the person whom you love the most."

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I am Angel. . . fickle butterfly.