{Senti}

 

Lyrics:  Let Me Be The One  Jimmy Bondoc

 

Stupid me. . .

I just had a fight with Honey. I don't know where this fight will lead to. Misunderstanding, harsh words and stupidity mixed together makes an explosive combination. I am on the edge again. I don't know if I should stay or leave. Uncalled for cockiness is driving a knife in an open wound. I am one insensitive git!


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I pray that somehow in some miraculous way Honey and I could fix this "misunderstanding" that we have. It was my fault this time. I am such a no-holds-bar bitch! If I could only tame my tongue. If only I could bring back the couple of hours ago. If only I could take the harsh words back. Maybe then I wouldn't be worrying myself. Maybe then I would be sleeping right now and not thinking of how to make amends. Maybe then I can still say that I have my Honey in my life. BUT I can't turn back time. I still haven't tamed my sharp tongue. I can't take those harsh words back. Now, I am not even sure if I will still have Honey in my life tomorrow.


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I am praying that tomorrow would be a better day. I am hoping that my ex-ex-Honey is not an ex-Honey again. I am praying that we could fix things. I am praying that my writing skill would help me get out of this. Psychobabble won't work if a party is not cooperating. I just hope that he would read my mail before he decides on anything. I just hope that what happened tonight is just a glitch. I pray that I could go through another bout of confusions and heartache with regards to him.

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I am Angel. . . an insensitive git!