{Bitching about. . .}

 

Lyrics:   My Stupid Mouth  John Mayer

 

My Stupid Mouth, Him, and G-MIK. . .

++ THIS SHOULD'VE BEEN POSTED YESTERDAY NIGHT BUT SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH MY INTERNET CONNECTION AND BLOGGER. MY APOLOGIES. . .

My Stupid Mouth


 

My stupid mouth

Has got me in trouble

I said too much again

To a date over dinner yesterday

And I could see

She was offended

She said "well anyway..."

Just dying for a subject change



 

Oh, another social casualty

Score one more for me

How could I forget?

Mama said "think before speaking"

No filter in my head

Oh, what's a boy to do

I guess he better find one soon



 

We bit our lips

She looked out the window

Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper

I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker

And I could see clearly

An indelible line was drawn

Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong



 

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed

Thanks for playing, try again.

How could I forget?

Mama said "think before speaking"

No filter in my head

Oh, what's a boy to do

I guess he better find one



 

I'm never speaking up again

It only hurts me

I'd rather be a mystery

Than she desert me



 

Oh I'm never speaking up again

Starting now



 

One more thing

Why is it my fault?

So maybe I try too hard

But it's all because of this desire

I just wanna be liked

I just wanna be funny

Looks like the jokes on me

So call me captain backfire



 

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed

Thanks for playing, try again.

How could I forget?

Mama said "think before speaking"

No filter in my head

Oh, what's a boy to do

I guess he better find one



 

I'm never speaking up again

It only hurts me

I'd rather be a mystery

Than she desert me



 

Oh I'm never speaking up again

Starting now



 

This song have been torturing me for days. I don't know what's up with this song. I just couldn't get it out of my head. Tsk! Tsk! I'm really a sucker for these kind of songs.

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This WEEK is really ONE FOR THE BOOKS!!! I had a very, very emotionally draining day today. Some unexpected event(s) really caught me off guard. My tear ducts suddenly let out a torrential down pour. I was half-expecting that things would go the way I predicted it would go and lo and behold! My predictions came true! Maybe I am some kind of psychic or clairvoyant. Maybe its just conditioning or maybe. . .maybe I'm just really a loser!

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HIM like Li'l Ms. Big Heart. Its official. This kind of put a strain on my friendship with Li'l Ms. Big Heart to the point that I even considered forgetting all the emotional investments that I've put on our friendship. I was deeply hurt but I have to move on. . . FAST!!! Li'l Ms. Big Heart says I obsess too much on things. She kept on asking me to hate her, to get mad at her, to show her how I was feeling. But I don't know why I couldn't do all these things. Normal people would've done the things that Li'l Ms. Big Heart asked me to do to her. Maybe I really am not normal. Maybe I really do have a disorder. Maybe I really did change.

I just accepted whatever it is that's happening right now. Li'l Ms. Big Heart and me are ok but HIM and me. . .well, that's another story. I know I have no right to get mad or even jealous because NOTHING ever happened to HIM and me. So I really have no control over the situation. Besides, if I really think about it, maybe these things are happening for some good reason. WE (Li'l Ms. Big Heart, me and HIM) don't see the good things but I know soon we'll see the light. ^_^

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It's funny what's happening to HIM, me and Li'l Ms. Big Heart. Our story seem like those shows about barkadahan like G-mik and TGIS. It made me realize that these things really do happen not only on TV but in real life as well. Its fun to watch those stupid teeny booper groups but when its happening in your life, you just want to get out of the situation. . . fast!

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I know everything will pass. Whatever it is that I'm feeling right now will pass. I know there's a better tomorrow. And right now, I know I'm sounding like a geeky idealist.

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Stupid ol' me kept blaming METEOR GARDEN for all these issues blown out of proportion. Maybe I should really try watching that series so I might get a vague idea on how to go about this situation that I am in.

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I am Angel. . . still sulking in the dark.