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I am such a party pooper. Why can't I, for once, just be a happy camper? Why do my emotions deviate whenever there's a supposedly good news with regards to my family?

If I could only turn back time and eat the words that I spewed last night. If I could only have the courage to say sorry to Nanay. If I could only pull back before the razor cut my skin. Would it matter if I feigned happiness when I heard my Nanay's pregnant. . .again? Would it have changed things?

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How would an almost 20 years old young adult with a 40 ++ mom react to a shocking news that her mom is pregnant? Maybe I am really just a frigging geekazoid and a huge weirdo that I deviated from how normal people would normally react. Maybe. . .I am just scared for my mom. Maybe. . .I couldn't believe it. Maybe. . .I am just a cold heartless bitch.

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I am back to my old time habit again. I am again an escape artist.

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I am Angel. . . mighty Buhawi Brewing!