{Bitching about. . .}

Lyrics: 
Ride With Me   NeLlY

Had two tests today, one in intreco and another one in my complab. I felt like superwoman or Darna right after I finished my Complab exam. J*s*s H. C*r*s*! What a day!

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I think I lost a couple of brain cells after exposure from the fumes of formalin and sponging solution in J604. I am dead tired!

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I'm soooo excited! I'll be seeing one of the loves (well, ex-loves!) of my life tomorrow. He's a tall, gangly, bespectacled, Harry Potter Fanatic, and very much . . .  : )  (..: Angel :.. blood rushes up her cheeks and raises her eyebrows with her trademark come hither look. . .) I missed him sooooo much! Its been months since we last saw each other. I hope he remembers to dress up the way I want my guys dressed.

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I met Heartbroken Nerdy Boy during the third term of my first year in my green and white school. He was still with Mad Irritating Lizard during the time and I, on the other hand, was still with my ex-dark chocolate Honey. I was the person he would always talk to whenever he had problems with M.I.L. and he was the person that I would talk to when I had problems with my ex-dark chocolate Honey. WE were each others strength and sanity during the times that our relationships were slowly crumbling on the sides. WE were family but not quite. M.I.L.,after three years of playing good music together, left Heartbroken Nerdy Boy for some Johnny Bravo guy. I, on the other, held Heartbroken Nerdy Boy's hands, wiped his tears, and gave little pep talks while imagining that things in my relationship with my ex-dark chocolate Honey were smooth sailing.After a couple of months after nursing Heartbroken Nerdy Boy's heart, I was the one experiencing the pain that he went thru. My ex-dark chocolate Honey left me without any plausible reason as to why he had to. I was the one who was devastated and Heartbroken Nerdy Boy's the one taking on my role.

Being friends and being lovers have a very blurry line. While nursing both our broken hearts, H.N.B and me, crossed the line from being friends to being lovers. We had a great love. He loved me. I loved him. He says I'm almost perfect and that he couldn't ask for more. But. . . the shadows of our past loomed over us and covered us both. He broke up with me reasoning that he still sees me with my ex-dark chocolate Honey. My heart and ego were bruised again but I was stronger and wiser that time and just tried my darnest to understand him. I let go of the idea of us being lovers and somehow tried to resort to us being friends again. I tried to see something good from that experience.

I don't know how you would call our relationship right now. We're the best of friends but not quite. How do you revert back to just being friends after sharing yourself and investing your emotions and heart in an intangible thing called love? I don't think we'll ever be just best friends. There's always something more in our relationship. More caring, more understanding, more love. . .definitely more love. Oh well!

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I am Angel. . . still fantasizing about finding the right man!

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Today was a hazy bubbly aerophage day!

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Salamat Jolly Rower Boy! I finally heard from you. . . : )