{Bitching about. . .}

Lyrics:  What If   BaBy FaCe

I'll be sticking with this current blogskin for awhile. I'm really having trouble uploading some of the "cutesy" blogskin(s) I want. My frustration regarding changing blogskins is increasing exponentially.
ARRRGGGHHH!!!!

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Today is a quiet day.

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COMMITMENT

Pronunciation: k&-'mit-m&nt

Function: noun

1 a : an act of committing to a charge or trust: as (1) : a consignment to a penal or mental institution (2) : an act of referring a matter to a legislative committee b : MITTIMUS

2 a : an agreement or pledge to do something in the future; especially : an engagement to assume a financial obligation at a future date b : something pledged c : the state or an instance of being obligated or emotionally impelled <a commitment to a cause>

I had lunch with my Tita G. yesterday and our conversation somehow was stirred towards this big word C. No dear that's not the dis-ease (as sir J would pronounce it). Its the OTHER BIG C!

I didn't realize that my views regarding long-time binding relationships (i.e. marriages) have changed dramatically over the few months that I've been alone. Its only yesterday that I've verbalized and somehow realized that I was one of those people I hated to be before. I am a COMMITMENT-PHOBIC person. After a couple of years of being emotionally "impelled" to my dark chocolate ex-Honey and was just left behind like some dirt rag, I've somehow accumulated quite a number of fears regarding committing myself for a long-time. I've realized that the word COMMITMENT entails a lot of things. . . a lot of investments. If things don't work out as you've expected or foreseen it to happen, it just makes you regret why you ever put so much of yourself in that commitment thing.

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I am Angel. . . . and I am a commitment phobic person. . .

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I hope that I'll soon come to my senses again and see hope in what I regard as hopeless right now. Maybe its just a phase this commitment phobia that I have.