mumblings from nowhere

It's been a long while since I posted anything in this "private" world of mine. A lot of things happened while I was wallowing in self-pity and self-doubt.

I have been to a strip club for a cousin's birthday bash. I'll elaborate more on that on my next entry.

I have been once again, disillusioned and broken by certain things that happened between me and ikaw. Apparently he was not true to his words. I guess, you could never really trust a person like that. I still have to find heart to be cold and apathetic towards him.

I have been enmulched in depression these past days to the point that my depression is suddenly turning into a great big obssession about my losing weight. The tie that would bind this issue is that ikaw's girl is stick thin and voices inside my head tells me I should be one too.

I write, right now, because I feel it is a necessity for me. In order for me to survive, I have to put down in writing whatever nonsense that come my way during this time, if I do something else otherwise, I think I might just head off to the edge of reason and jump into that great big dark abyss and never make an effort to come out of it.

Hopefully soon, I'd have the strength and the state of mind to write something better than this crap that I've just written.

So much for a new month, eh?