{Bitching about. . .}

Lyrics:  Thank You   DiDo

I am feeling damned bad tonight. Course card distribution's tomorrow and my stomach's going flippity flop. My blooming relationship with Cutie Mech's suddenly went kaput. And I still don't know where the hell I'd be going for my summer immersion for Filipsy.

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A couple of days back, Cutie Mech and I had a stupid fight. Its been 5 days since that unfortunate day and we still haven't spoken to each other. I am starting to lose hope with regards to this graying part of my love life. I used to think that I'm having an upbeat love life but lo and behold! things suddenly crumbled and went downhill! J***S C***s*! Funny
thing is, I still am not used to this sad and horrid turn of events in my love life. Its been 11 months since my dark chocolate ex-Honey left me and I still haven't found the person who's willing to be showered by my overflowing love. It seems like every time I try to have a relationship, or even a tiny semblance of it, one thing or another would go awry and kaput! There goes my efforts!

I hate when things end this way.

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And I'm still haunted by the GHOST of a past long gone. . ..

Ghost

Indigo Girls

CD:

Rites of Passage

There's a letter on the desktop that I dug out
of a drawer;

The last truce we ever came to in our adolescent war.

And I start to feel the fever from the warm air through the screen.

You come regular like seasons shadowing my dreams.

The Mississippi's mighty, but it starts in
Minnesota

at a place where you could walk across with five steps down.

And I guess that's how you started--like a pinprick to my heart,

and at this point you rush right through me and I start to drown.

And there's not enough room in this world for
my pain.

Signals cross and love gets lost and time past makes it plain,

of all my demon spirits I need you the most.

I'm in love with your ghost

Dark and dangerous like a secret, it's
whispered in a hush.

When I wake the things I dreamt about you last night make me blush.

And you kiss me like a lover, and you sting me like a viper,

I go follow to the river, play your memory like the piper.

And I feel it like a sickness how this love is
killing me.

But I'd walk into the fingers of your fire willingly.

And dance the edge of sanity--I've never been this close.

I'm in love with your ghost

Oh, unknowing captor, you'll never know how
much you pierce my spirit

I can't touch you--can you hear it?

A cry to be free, or I'm forever under lock and key as you pass through me.

Now I see your face before me; I would launch a
thousand ships

to bring your heart back to my island as the sand beneath me slips.

As I burn up in your presence and I know now how it feels

to be weakened like Achilles with you always at my heels.

And my bitter pill to swallow is this silence
that I keep

that poisons me, I can't swim free, the river is too deep.

Though I'm baptized by your touch, I am no worse at most.

I'm in love with your ghost