{Senti}

Lyrics:  Higher  CrEeD

Well, visited Prem's blog and I was somehow deeply moved (?) by his entry yesterday. Discrimination is still the middle name of our high and might society. Prejudice when broken, boils down to pre-judgement. When will this root of misery stop? Discrimination mixed with love almost always will be equated with broken hearts and sometimes death. Discrimination is one of the reason why my Nanay never tried accepting my ex-dark chocolate Honey. . .

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Contented vs. Contended. . .

I am somehow contented with my telenovela like life right now. The waves in my turf are calm and tranquil. It scares me sometimes when I realize that things are ok, cheery and cheeky. I'm so used to the battlefield like atmosphere in my homefront. But this is quite a respite from the painful experiences of a childhood that I could not even remember. For two years I've contended whatever advices, suggestions and commands my Nanay willed me to do. For two years, I've contended with all the world for a love that I thought was only mine. For a time it was only mine. . .in my mind. Things are better without the struggle and the strife. Things are somehow better when I am pseudo-obliging to my Nanay. Maybe someday when I've got my strength back, I'll be able to fight for what is it that I believe in. But right now. . . I'll just stick with the status quo. I'm too burnt out from the past year.

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Macho Gwapito is my ex-dark chocolate Honey's college best bud. We talked a couple of mornings ago. Finally, he has come to his senses. His middle name right now is MONOGAMY. He meet his pangga a couple of years ago and with some Higher Beings doing, they've crossed their paths again. I miss my Macho Gwapito Kuya. I hope his relationship with Ms. Feminist will last a lifetime. They were oh so lovey dovey a couple of mornings ago. . .or maybe I'm just jealous they both found the the person they were both looking for all these time. . .

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Yesterday was an ex-dark chocolate Honey reminiscing day. . .

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I am Angel. . .still in denial. . .